The joys of single living...and of relationships.

A few of my friends tease me about being a closet-feminist. I wouldn't admit to that much, but I will say I'm a fan of independence. Before this year, I would have never imagined being comfortable with my singleness. For much of my adolescent existence, I've thought about marriage and what it will be like some day. The idea of love has been so attractive. I'm not one who has planned out my wedding, and I certainly did not come to Bethel to get married. With that said, I do see myself getting married some day. I look forward to that day, but for now I'm so content to be single. God has blessed this time of my life in beautiful ways. I'm understanding now that he has given me much freedom and availability in my single life. So instead of falling into the temptation of "When is it going to be my turn to fall in love?" I am basking in being single. 

At the same time, I see examples of beautiful relationships all around me. It can get a bit annoying at times, but overall, it makes me happy. 

So, thinking back to my first comment about feminism, I wonder why two comments from friends were huge compliments to me. First, a friend of mine told me I wasn't very feminine, but very stylish. Loved it! Then, today, two guy friends of mine made a remark about me not being an airhead. Again, so great to hear. I guess I've just been battling with some silly identity stuff, but these comments affirmed my individuality to me. I'm me, and people like that. Thanks for liking me, friends.

Putting all that aside, God has been faithful in huge ways this week! As I said, I've been working through some self-pity things recently. God has used friends, new acquaintances, and family to reaffirm me. AND...I finally have a job! Thank you, Jesus! Gap called me today about a job offer, and I was so touched by God's goodness. Amazing Provider. 

I am content. I am pursuing God. And I'm still resting. Good day.