What Can I Give Him?

What can I give him, poor as I am? 
If I were a shepherd, I would bring a lamb;
If I were a wise man, I would do my part;
Yet what I can I give him: give my heart.

These words are simply amazing. I have to say that this song is my favorite at Christmas. I love the praise it gives Jesus, and still, it challenges me to be humble before him. I've been battling with a lot lately; a lot of inner pain and discontent. I realized how little I was trusting Jesus and how little time I'd been spending with him. And then, I discovered how great my doubt had become. I was no longer seeing Jesus in his majesty. As God began to soften my heart and reveal this to me, he reminded me of this song, In The Bleak Midwinter. I am so in awe of how God knows me. He is this powerful, beautiful King, yet he wants me to sit with him as his child. Wow. Oh man, I so much to learn. 

And today, I have been physically stretched. My body is exhausted, but I am completely content. Maybe it's the joy of Christmas, the decorations popping up everywhere, carols filling my room, the crunch of snow beneath my feet. Or maybe it's the hope of Jesus, a man humbly entering earth as a baby and holding his sovereignty at the same time. I love this Jesus of ours. He is good. So good. And he gives us rest. He gives us joy! He gives us people to love us, challenge, and enjoy us. Thanks for this time of year, Jesus. I love the simple joys of Christmas, but mostly, I love better understanding your love for me.